Authenticity

I'm absolutely in love right now! I'm in love with my freedom to intensify my commitment to rigorous authenticity. It's not that I haven't been extremely motivated in the past to prove I am who I say I am, but at this point I'm just rolling with the punches and realizing that I'm changing each day. I'm changing faster than I ever have and most of the time, I don't actually know for certain who I am or even think it's necessary to label myself.

I know in my heart what I value in life and I know in my soul what I long for to fulfill my life's desires. I will choose to walk the straight and narrow as I can best interpret what that is. I've realized that it's all any of us can do. We can merely choose to be true to ourselves and what we want because we can't control anything else. I believe with all my heart that we get in life what we have the courage to ask for. Asking requires authenticity.

There have been times where I've really truly believed I knew who I was and I wasn't allowing those things about myself to evolve. I've realized that now that those times are over and no longer necessary in this phase, I need to grow into who I want to be. That requires inevitable change. All of which, I find extremely exciting. My current state allows me to voice who I am each and every random moment without fear of being judged or hurt. Withholding such things or convincing myself of anything else harbors superficial relationships with others and, most importantly, myself.

I'm going to say what I want, as ridiculous as any sentence may be. No hiding. No excuses. I'm just figuring things out as I go. I haven't had the freedom to make decisions solely based on my own desires for quite some time. I'm doing my best to embrace this time because I know that these decisions will allow me to be authentic and get to know ME.